My life in Quotes

“Remember that good things come in threes and so do bad things and always apologize when you’ve done something wrong but don’t you ever apologize for the way your eyes refuse to stop shining.” - Sarah Kay I would like to talk about dating but in a lesson kind of way. Some people say that they won't date another person again with the same name, date certain people with a certain name, or date someone with a family member's name. There's all kinds of criteria people have for what they want in a mate and it could be anything from superficial things to intrinsic qualities. Once upon a time, I dated three women named Taylor. There was Taylor the Redhead, who was my love at first sight, Taylor the Blonde and Taylor the Last. If you've read my blog Taylor the Redhead was as I said was my love at first sight. I loved her and my Mom loved her. When Mom loves her and you love her, that's the woman you have to marry.  Taylor the Blonde came next. I remember meeting her t...

"Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty." Mother Teresa Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be loved and I feel like a burden on my friends. This stems from being given away for adoption. I don't think I can handle such a rejection like that ever again if I ever decide to contact my birth mom. Those statements feel irrational to many people I feel like but let me explain. What happened to me? Why do I feel this way? When I got deported to North Carolina from New York State, I kicked and screamed. I said stuff like can I live with Grandma and my Mom was like, Grandma is done raising kids lol! That's not what Grandma's are for! I understand that now. I moved to the south and it sucked. I can remember some things from moving here, mainly the rough moments that stick out. Like I made friends really fast when I moved here but my career in middle school was tumultuous. I went to Crown Christian when I moved here but I...

My current favorite show is Brooklyn 99 and I'm on season 5 but in season 4 they tackled racism in the police force. It really made me think back to middle school. I have very vivid thoughts of racism that I had encountered before. Sergeant Jeffords is one of my favorite characters on the show. He's funny and caring. He always has his team's back in any situation that arises. The show isn't an accurate depiction of police life but it's very funny as well as a good distraction. Why this is so important to me has a few things I'll bring up that I'm very guarded to talk about with my friends. "Sergeant Jeffords: I wanted to help people like that cop helped me. But right now, I don't feel like a superhero. I feel the opposite. When I got stopped the other day, I wasn't a cop. I wasn't a guy who lived in a neighborhood looking for his daughter's toy. I was a black man, a dangerous black man. That's all he could see: a threat. And I c...

This is my preface for this article: "They won't notice you unless you jump out of a moving train." So I've been dating since I was about 18. It's been an uphill awkward battle all the way. I wanted to date in high school and earlier but that didn't happen. I take it that I was socially awkward and not a popular kid. I played ice hockey, soccer and baseball ,and sometimes I was an all star and sometimes I was just a hot head. I digress, okay so my first girlfriend was in college, her name is Magda. She's got a kid now, not mine. She was a senior in high school and I was introduced to her through some friends. So I've had good dates and bad dates that both turned into nothing. I've had long distance relationships for reasons I'm not sure why but lessons were learned. Things I learned from dating, oh wow this should be fun. Magda said to me, "don't be so jealous, it's good to have guys check me out then realize that I'm wi...