My life in Quotes

Sometimes I feel like a second rate friend... but I'm thankful for those who make me remember that I'm not... There was a time I had a car and a bestfriend named Rodney, oh and I had a girlfriend named Taylor. Okay that's a horrible intro to the paragraph. Once upon a time there was myself, my bestfriend and the love of my life my girlfriend Taylor. Everyday I get reminders of my life when I had my parents here in North Carolina, I had Rodney and was "in love" with Taylor. Taylor, we met at the Mayweather vs. Pacquiao fight night at a house party. Well I met her at the end where I was exiting. It was love at first sight. I walked past her and it was like electricity jumped from one of us and shocked us. It was like something I've never felt. I walked up stairs and was like this is so weird. I told Rodney and I had to do something then I ran back downstairs to her. I found her and said to her, I know this is weird but I'm Joshua and I'd l...

“Too many of us are not living our dreams because we are living our fears.” - unknown People give me shit about staying at Rooftop 210 or in BMG for as long as I did. I'm a very hopeful individual, I would like to believe that people will look out for you when you're the hardest worker in the industry. I could not succeed in a company that wouldn't allow me to be anything greater than a barback. From the 19th of March til today I have lived the struggle of transitioning into a normal life. I've had sleep anxiety for months during the time I was at Rooftop til even now, I wake up screaming and sweating. It's quite detrimental to one's psychological state of mind, the amount of emotional abuse I took and I felt less love from those I sought acceptance from. I was passed up for bartender and had another barback placed in a leadership role who talked down to me. Never again... Now onto where my heart is, it's in pain. I shouldn't have been in an affair but...

Mom says that I used to love Valentine's day, we used to make a big deal about it with candy, stuffed animals and special dinners. I guess growing up sucks... I'm sure that's why I'm a romantic but the day feels dead to me even though it should be a symbolic day about reflecting on people who care about you and whom you care about. I don't really want a Valentine but I'll still share the love to all my friends. I give thanks for my family, friends and the love of my life. Valentine's Day is one of the biggest commercial events. With that being said we should strive to live beyond the life of the holiday. We should show love to those in our lives continuously with the need to receive gifts or steak the day after. We should be sending love notes, cards and writing sweet little nothings most of the time. If you're not mushy, that's fine, send a card with something thoughtful you're thinking at the moment. Not everything has to be mushy either, kin...

"Each friendship offers something totally unique — and irreplaceable. Each friendship ultimately makes us who we are." - unknown Irreplaceable - "adjective incapable of being replaced; unique: an irreplaceable vase." I have few things in life that I'd consider friends, music... okay maybe just music. Why just music, well I don't have a doggy companion to love on. Music is the number one tangible thug that never let's me down. When I'm angry or sad it can lift my to the heavens or bring me all this emotional energy that I need to survive. Now on to people, my unique friendships, some have been with some amazing people. My childhood neighborhood friends well those that have lasted the test of ptsd and forgetting some of you. My roommate and I have been friends for 13 years, he's irreplaceable in that he is what I've come to need in life a strong, level headed and extremely compassionate friend. How he teaches me to be appreciative of wha...

" I love life in spite of all that mars it. I love friendship, jokes and laughter. " ~Tahar Ben Jelloun Sometimes life seems to kill my laughter. With that being said what about life that kills my laughter? It's the stress of going to work and having to pay bills. That's just a cop out. Almost every adult in America and every 1st world country has a life they must sustain, being themselves or another life at some point in time. I love to laugh, I'll sit at work, as in tonight watching SnapChats of my friends kids doing crazy things and I'll just erupt in laughter and of course I offer and apology, as if anyone really cares. I love my friends who seem to lift my spirits when they are sinking into the abysmal depths that are self pity and doubt. Then there are friendships gone wrong, abuse from family members, oh some of the woes adolescence brings and love all that mar my love of life. I think, no I know that I make myself laugh the most. Who better t...