My life in Quotes

  Like Me, Like I, Like You, Like Us I cannot get enough of you, We made so many sandcastles, growing up. Now I am mad when I think about those sandcastles. You smashed the very first one. Should have given up on us after that. Then I realized that the tide would have just done the same. Faced the fact that you really liked me when I when I made that decision to be your friend or did you make the decision to be my friend. Who cares things are not always perfect like that day but going forward I really like the way we are. This poem is about my best friend leaving me in 2011 but it was written in 2012. It kind of foreshadowed the future that exists now. We are best friends and bros again. It means the world to me that he is in my life. I’m very proud of who we have become and things came around.

One thing I have learned this week that people care immensely about me. It's been a great feeling all the love and insight. What's better is that I have introspective that I've gained. “Mental health…is not a destination, but a process. It’s about how you drive, not where you’re going.” –  Noam Shpancer Dealing with my ex-best friend, Rodney was a huge heart breaker. Why because we had been friends since we were 12 and 13 years old in Matthew, NC. I told people hey, I don't want best friends because of him. My dad says you know it's not a bad thing but it's tied to a hurtful feeling. I had such fun and pure times with him. It was just two guys doing dumb shit and not hurting anyone. There never was pressure from either of us to do harmful things to anyone and that's why it hurts. I'm not going to talk about the hurt but this post is about the good times that I can actually remember. On Facebook, I wrote: " Today's lesson kids: Bad people...

This is just a bunch of thoughts. They are interconnected on the basis that Facebook has a thing called timeline and it made me think at 2:30 am in the friggin morning. It helped me be grateful for where I've been and where I'm going. I've been in Charlotte since 1995, wow! I love this city and I've had a wild time here. I've made a ton of friends and if you ask this shy kid in 2003, would have ever touched so many lives and met so many amazing people, I'd have shit myself. Hahaha! I've worked for companies, left and been asked to rejoin them. I've had three recommendations to the police academy before I started CPCC. I've graduated high school from United Faith and I struggled with college and I overcame obstacles to get two Associates degrees and I'm working on getting a bachelor's degree again because it just didn't happen. I've had my heartbroken and had it pieced back together, a handful of times. I've played for the Jun...

I wrote a post that was inappropriate for Linkedin, I listened to a few friends who told me to take it down but I left it here on blogger because it's something that I wrote. For the good, bad or uncharacteristic of myself, I kept it. I wrote asking for advice, help but it was very sporadic and all over the place in thought. I've been dealing with a lot. Trying to figure out memories and why I have so few of them and my short term memory loss. I also am dealing with work stress. I hate my industry, I work really hard to have so little because I want to have a job but I'm just working paycheck to paycheck to pay bills. I just recently in December buried the ashes of my Mom. It was rough but the positive thing is I was on Latuda and it's been wonderful, my thoughts were clear and I was genuinely able to appreciate my friends that came out to support me. I have great news from that entry that I wrote, I'm back in school. I prayed and did a lot of work. I talked to ...

Your biological parents may not be your real parents... It's who raised you. Because anyone can drop an egg and get someone knocked up! I struggle on a the real with this because, who I am is not who created me. She's probably a pretty awesome mother but she's not my mother. It hurts but he's a great father but not who raised me. I've learned a lot and I'm grateful for everything my parents have taught me and allowed me to become. We're taught by society to believe that blood is thicker than water and even people on paper still suck but I got lucky. Family is anyone who loves you and nurtures you through this life. So on Mother's Day I show my love and affection to my mom, not the woman I'm genetically linked to but Father's Day I pay homage to two great men in my life. Because no matter how long it takes someone to get to where they are supposed to be in life despite life's hiccups, you may have the potential to be a great parent. ...