My life in Quotes

I voiced my opinion today. It wasn't eloquent but it was a start. I was sitting in the car with one of my very compassionate friends, when this happened. So this has been a very painful week for Charlotte. I've been having a lot of thoughts, feeling, images and people bombarding me with their feelings and opinions. I care, I really do, I sat at home trying to sort this out with my roommates asking me am I alright.  I am not alright. I walked during the daylight hours  to "my home away from home" Rooftop and it's only to survey the damage in the epicenter and the other parts too that had busted in windows that became boarded up. What good does it do to vandalize, steal and harm other's property or their lively hood. So do  #BLM , #ALM , #ServiceIndustryLivesMatter   and #CopsLivesMatter yes they do.  It's super frustrating. I feel like my head might explode. Here's why: I'm mixed, I experienced racism at a v...

I'm weird, if you've known me for a month or 20 years... it shouldn't be a surprise. I get insecure at awful times and sometimes for no reason. I used to want to not be the nicest guy in the room. I have made New Year's resolutions to become something like an asshole. It happened not over night but the span of six years in the service industry. Being someone who I shouldn't be is taxing... I feel like I shouldn't be the nicest guy in the room but I sure as hell shouldn't be an asshole either. And think about this on a personal level who would you all rather I be. I've seen it all the way around what I'm like. I've hurt people, given more than I have to some, loved some, gone to battle for some and even disowned a few friends. I'm not perfect nor would I want to be. I'm always going to be me, ever evolving and ever growing.

People tell each other that love sucks... you know what it does! I don't care... I really don't... if you want to be in love and have a fairy tale wedding then by all means. If you want to elope that's cool too, save some money. I've had love at first sight, it was amazing, would I want it again, probably not but if it happens it happens. It still took work and it still fell apart. So does love suck... yes! If you've only been infatuated and not in love then sit down til you find someone who is willing to put up with your emotional wreckage. Lust/ infatuation isn't love. We will all get wrinkles somewhere on our body, that's when people get botox or just leave because they can't stand washing sand out of their lovers skin flaps... idk the person that sticks around and cuts your pills up when you're old is the person who loves you. Someone who cares for every word you speak and wipes your tears away is love. The person who makes you laugh when all ...