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A Letter to My Support Group 2

Bipolar robs you of that which is you. It can take from you the very core of your being and replace it with something that is completely opposite of who and what you truly are. Because my bipolar went untreated for so long, I spent many years looking in the mirror and seeing a person I did not recognize or understand. Not only did bipolar rob me of my sanity, but it robbed me of my ability to see beyond the space it dictated me to look. I no longer could tell reality from fantasy, and I walked in a world no longer my own.”
― Alyssa Reyans, Letters from a Bipolar Mother
I feel for me this is partially true, I lost my identity which in reality didn't matter. Being diagnosed at 19 years old with bipolar, teens and young adults, many don't know who they are any more or are searching for themselves. I didn't start realizing who I was still about 23 years old and started going back to school. I feel like sometimes we are a bit dramatic which is the gift and curse from having bipolar, many of us are quite creative and artistic. So, I'll never put anyone down for not being on meds but until you can see through the cloud of your own mental illness and turn it to something beautiful there will be people here for you. Stay on your meds and be your own advocate to your doc. I wrote a letter to you all when I joined that somehow never posted, oh well.
On the last note, a kind of celebration, I got down dosed from my Lamictal and Abilify as well as being declassified as schizoaffective.
-One Love


I wrote this because I just want to inspire people. We need to live our best lives.

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