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Father's Day 2020

Happy Father's day to the biggest influence in my life. It's not because you adopted me. It's because you cultivated what was in me. You told me if you want to play ice hockey, you need to learn to skate... I was a natural because I needed the basic fundamentals I learned. My dad assistant coached a few years of baseball. I was that typical daisy picking kid in center field but we stuck it out and I became a great catcher and center fielder. 

When I got very ill in my freshman year he was like... I wish you didn't live on campus but he still let me come home. You are the honest reason I want to be a Dad. Through all the ups and downs life has thrown me, you are always there. I don't enjoy politics but I still let you ramble on. You may not be Mom but you're what I need in a Dad. 

Whenever there are dads playing silly games with their kids I'm like I want that. I want to be like him. I understand it costs a lot of time and money to adopt me but I'm glad you didn't give up on me. As an adult you know I made my choice to stay here in Charlotte, a few reasons, you know Florida is god's waiting room and it's just so humid but I still loved to visit. the biggest one is I believe I'm called to help this city, I want to help special needs families all over Charlotte just like you took care of Jasper and me. All the holidays I've missed with you and Mom, they hurt my heart so much that I want to be like you because you worked with me to get down to Florida after them. I wish was a normal guy but in all reality, you still love me for who I am and where I am headed. I love you for being my Dad.
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