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Mentally Okay Enough to Love Life

"Even when I'm sick and depressed, I love life."
~Arthur Rubinstein

Great quote. 
Why?
Because it touches my very essence. I may not seem to love life at points but I'll never take my own life or intentionally take another life. Well there was this one time when there was fog on my back road near my house, I hit a raccoon. In his defense he might have had rabies. It can't be confirmed or denied... I didn't file a police report at the time.

Okay well this speaks to me about mental illness which in our darkest hour of being sick and depressed, those who suffer from chronic depression, sometimes dream of death. Well this speaks volumes, love life. We all don't get to come back from the dead, we stare death in the face many times but once you're gone you are gone. Love life, love your life... Sometimes I feel like my life is the pits, as if I have reached the lowest low, feeling as if no one loves me, when in reality 1000's of people and a merciful God loves me. I'll feel as if I have zero legacy to give when I most likely have 60 more years on this earth. You know how many illegitimate children I can have by then... (rhetorical statement). 
So while other people are having a crappy holiday season too, I'll think, I have it in me to help others not have a crappy holiday season. It's about giving to others, not necessarily to make one's self feel better but to show how much love one has to give.

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