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She Said

 I would like to think that I'm Spiritual, not religious but I read the religious text called the Bible. I also believe in love and I know that there are definitions of what love is versus what I've been showing to my last girlfriend.  1 Corinthians 13:4-5 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; She read the greatest love and understood it to be about my love of first sight relationship or in retrospect the girlfriend it's about. The greatest love isn't about said girl but about the feelings around it and they can't be recreated because we are all different people. I understand that that relationship has ended, I hold on to the hope that there can be a love-at-first-sight relationship again. It doesn't have to actually happen but I want to look at the woman I love every day with that feeling. Because in that relationship the feeling went away, and I

What Do You Mean that You Can't Forgive?

  I want to share a lesson I learned a couple of days ago that I've been thinking about very hard. Society as a whole doesn't believe in forgiveness that's why people are walking around hurt all of the time, including me, even though I believe in it. I was speaking with my friend's kid about these boys in her neighborhood. The boys killed a turtle and that's why she didn't like the boys. I took her to Target after the encounter with the boys playing with her dogs. I said part of the problem with that interaction with them being interested in you is that they don't remember that you know about the turtle and that you reacted out of anger towards them being friendly. Then I said have you ever thought about forgiving them? She said I can't killing a turtle is not okay, I said, truth. I said but that's not okay to not forgive when they weren't even being hostile towards you. BTW, she shut me down after that and didn't want to hear anymore. For m

How We Study Development

  R&D - Mod4: How We Study Development   You read in a parenting magazine that hearing the music of Mozart might enhance young children's cognitive abilities and improve performance on intelligence tests (often termed "The Mozart Effect"). How could you design a study to investigate the credibility of this claim? As you describe your study, be sure to specify the following: 1.      The research design - experimental or correlational? If experimental, remember to state the IVs and DVs. This research is correlational and experimental, the testing is needed to draw conclusions and is the DV. The children all being 6 years old are the IV. 2. The methodology (How old will your participants be? What will participants do?  What data will you collect and how?) My participants would be 6 years old so that the children are all on the same playing field in the control. I will have them split into two classes and they will study for an hour listening to a playlist made

Slip

Slip into my soul. Save my nights from the horde. It’s four in the morning. Save me from the nightmarish dreams. Blow the winds of change. Stir my soul. Save me, save me, don’t let me go. Hold me, hold me, and don’t let me go home. Test my mind. Free my soul, don’t let them get me. It’s six in the morning. I haven’t been to sleep. I worry about things like wood nymphs and water sprites. They were dancing, singing, stirring in the night. Yet they were not the cause of my night terrors. Lies and deceit are the cause of it all. If I come clean my soul will rest. No more spirits evil or good. No more lies of being strapped to my bed. No more spikes tacked to my heart. I have broken free of my shackles. Now it’s a thing were I confess and find peace. This poem is pretty clear about my mental anguish that I go though. I hate that many people with bipolar or other mental illness crave basic human needs and can't have them because inside our heads th

On the Warpath to Love

 On The Warpath to Love I have never fasted before. I am considering it for the journey is long. I have thought that the journey will be the easiest part. The preparations are the struggle. Being without what I need has become just the everyday. I haven’t really been loved in a few years. Not as much as not loved but in love. Saying and feeling how I feel are two different things. I could have given up when others have given up on me. I feel sad but not discouraged. Even though you have gone away you are close to my heart. When I see you, you will be the one who will be the most surprised. I already feel my heart growing fonder and bigger. Pumping more blood and feeling stronger for you. It’s been a few days and I’m already inspired to write for you. We said, “We have love for each other”. It is true. I will break free of any fears to bring you back. It is true. There are no truer words than “I love you”. I march a twenty-eight day trek to brin

Like Me, Like I, Like You, Like Us

  Like Me, Like I, Like You, Like Us I cannot get enough of you, We made so many sandcastles, growing up. Now I am mad when I think about those sandcastles. You smashed the very first one. Should have given up on us after that. Then I realized that the tide would have just done the same. Faced the fact that you really liked me when I when I made that decision to be your friend or did you make the decision to be my friend. Who cares things are not always perfect like that day but going forward I really like the way we are. This poem is about my best friend leaving me in 2011 but it was written in 2012. It kind of foreshadowed the future that exists now. We are best friends and bros again. It means the world to me that he is in my life. I’m very proud of who we have become and things came around.

The Greatest Love

The greatest feeling that a human can have above all other feelings is love. We have fought wars for the love of a single woman, protest wars in the name of peace and love, give little chalk candies with sayings on them, in elementary school we give little paper Valentine's to the entire class but sneak in a special card for the cutest girl in our class that we can't stop staring at, we give boxes of chocolates, buy $100+ bouquets of roses, create life and say, this is what I've been missing my entire life as that small person grabs your finger for the first time, we get drunk in bars and scream, I love you man! And above all, we say that getting butterflies is a sign of knowing that there's that feeling that special feeling where you know without a shadow of a doubt that she's the one. If you've loved and lost or never have been in love here's to the most expensive couples day ever created.  Oh, we spend thousands of dollars on a ring and formulate that we