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Different strokes for different friends?

"Each friendship offers something totally unique — and irreplaceable. Each friendship ultimately makes us who we are." - unknown

Irreplaceable -
"adjective

incapable of being replaced; unique:
an irreplaceable vase."

I have few things in life that I'd consider friends, music... okay maybe just music. Why just music, well I don't have a doggy companion to love on. Music is the number one tangible thug that never let's me down. When I'm angry or sad it can lift my to the heavens or bring me all this emotional energy that I need to survive.

Now on to people, my unique friendships, some have been with some amazing people. My childhood neighborhood friends well those that have lasted the test of ptsd and forgetting some of you.

My roommate and I have been friends for 13 years, he's irreplaceable in that he is what I've come to need in life a strong, level headed and extremely compassionate friend. How he teaches me to be appreciative of what we are all capable and capable of overcoming.

I've had friends that walk similar paths in life of destruction and love. One of my closest friends uses me for monetary gain even if he pays me back but this one I know loves me because he will talk me out of anxiety like I was a cat stuck in a tree that needed rescuing. I'm the type that can't let friends fall on their face. If you need a hand, I am more than willing to lend a hand up.

Friends that won't sugar coat things are friends we need even when the bottom falls out on life. She makes me have thicker skin... which we all need.

Those I have been lovers to in love with. Don't get so jealous that you don't see her true beauty and the fact she only has eyes for you. One of my girl friends was so completely jealous of my exes because they had me first. I was hardly jealous of her past because I wanted to be her future. I learned how to be mushy from a cheater... and it made me vindictive, downside... from being used to being truly loved is amazing and it helps lift burdens and gives us an amazing heart song.

So who I ultimately am... I'm a friend that would give my shirt for a friend and go without at many times. I'm a student of how to own my emotions and become more level headed and not think so much with my heart. I am a lover and a fighter even when chips are down and I'm almost out, I remember that I'm being loved and have been loved by many people I've touched over my lifetime. I am a rock and a shining knight ready for battle for his friends and lover.

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