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Forgiveness for a lifetime and beyond!

"Forgiveness is that subtle thread that binds both love and friendship. Without forgiveness, you may not even have a child one day."

- George Foreman

I've seen what love at first sight is and love at first click. I'm going to say that I will never pick love at first sight. Love is a hard thing to grasp and a hard place to be. It takes work and time to nurture. I've had infatuation and lust relationships too. I've been used for emotional and a rebound needs.

I have a big heart and I forgive easily. I was chasing this amazing woman who didn't know how to love again nor did she want to. We clicked that night and into the morning having deep conversations. I knew I wanted to be with her regardless of her situation which probably wasn't the best idea ever but there were a few times she would push me a way till she let me inside her walls. It takes a big heart to forgive a lot of pain. I wasn't ready to give up hope on her. Now we are at crossroads and would love to come back together someday.

There are things I do every now and then is I forgive myself...I also make wishes at 11:11 and I rarely use a wish on myself I mostly give them for others for Nobel causes. It's so much easier to make sure that those you love get guardian angels to watch them then wasting a wish.

What I take away from George Foreman is that we cannot love others, especially the one we want to be with for forever and especially if we want a child with them. We need to forgive ourselves everyday. We need to live with a growing understanding of what loving ourselves and our best friend we want to be with for forever. We need to understand how to forgive ourselves and our best friend who is our lover. Without this there is no eternal love.

Dedicated to my Fiery Nova

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